考试周

最近两个礼拜都没UPDATE我的BLOG了，今天就写一些吧！！要不然就会生锈了，HA HA！！！这几个礼拜都在忙考试，每天读三个小时的书，不疯也剩半条命。。。。。。。。

虽然好像读很多，可是考到现在什么都好像够吃而已，PA 试卷一应该算OK吧 ， PA 2 格式没错，只是POINTS有没有中就不知道了！！！ Chemistry 试卷1 错八题 ， 原以为只会错4 题 ，后来错多一倍， 算了，试卷二，ESSAY 漏掉一些POINTS ， 不知道会怎样 ？ 物理试卷1 只是错5题 ， 有开心到，因为物理是我的死穴 ， 可是试卷2 ， 才要我的命 ， EQUATION写对了 ， 可是时间太短 ， 害我计算机乱乱按， 有几题就那么GG了。。。。。。

最不爽的是我去厕所太快也给人家怀疑！！！说我去作弊，也不看看我去的时间，我去都不到一分钟，看+背答案都超过一分钟 了！！！！！你不会做我不怪你 ，就是不要讲到我 ，如果还有下次，就让你知道死字怎么写！！！！

作弊，不可能

算了，为这种人动气不值得 ， 还是留点力气来读我的数学 ， 这科不可以GG ， 这是我第二喜欢的科目 ， 也希望这科考好一点 ，可以拉高整体的CGPA ， 我要的不多，就3.5以上 ， 要不让然很对不起自己 ，加油 ！！！！

下个礼拜二要去唱K ， 拜三要去看电影 ，拜四去打球 ，拜五，拜六和家人出去玩 ，好期待下个礼拜的到来 ， 我已经两个月没有出去了！！！！

最后，朋友们加油，最后两张试卷了，我们行的！！！！加油！！！

晴时多云偶阵雨

我想这句话最能描述我这个礼拜的心情写照吧 ！不想再去提起了，忘记或者是最佳的解决方法。。。。。。。想太多真的是我的致命伤吧？

算了，说些开心的，昨天再次和HENRY确定补习是否取消，他说没有，顿时吓到，因为上个礼拜他说取消，可是后来又没有。够乱的咯他，所以过后马上去通知别人。我通知人的方式很FORMAL么？为什么有人那么说呢？ 还好，通知全部人了，没有人怪我告诉他们错的消息。。

今天，YIK QI 要做SURVEY ，婚前性行为，你赞不赞同 ，有点难回答，后来还是回答赞同！做这样的题目就有点怪怪的感觉。还好，今天班上的气氛又回到以前那样了，就废废的 ， MUET的时候，SPEAKING ， 够难的咯，我的POINT ，还好够讲两分钟，希望拜二的题目不要那么那难,保佑，保佑 ！！！

第二次了，上PA补习，上到睡掉，还好如意叫醒我，所以说吗，中六的时间真的不够用，昨天，连续读两个INORGANIC CHEMISTRY 的 CHAPTER ，读了还要自己做SHORT NOTES ， 读到2点才睡，今天AMRAN上课又没有抄NOTES，就不小心睡掉 。 后来，才发现，也是有很多人倒下去，EC 的有几个人 ， HA HA ，好笑咯 ，那样子你都能睡 ， SSI 的更GENG ， 超多倒下去，难怪今天上课有那么一点点安静 ， 我的感觉是否坏掉了 ， 因为人家讲都没有什么安静到 ， HA HA 。。。。


考试越来越近，有点期待，是不是XIAO了我，可是又有点害怕，复习的引擎已启动 ， 可是功课还是很多，所以有时要会安排时间，在功课与复习之间做出调整 ，要不然肯定会忽略其中一项 。。。。。。。物理，还是对你没有兴趣，可是这个礼拜对你慢慢有点好感，希望不要败在你手上。。。。。。。。。

最后，希望大家都加油，还没开始复习的，快点复习，开始的，继续努力，大家一起加油吧！！！STPM ， 我一定能打败你的！！！！

我要自己加油！！！

Sadness

Tomorrow got a lot of things to do , so , today faster update my blog !!!! This is a busier week than before , the exam is coming nearer and nearer , but i only prepare chemistry ..... PA n math , only prepare little ....... Physic , sure gg one as i dont have much interest on this subject , did none revision on it .

This week , argue n quarrel with my parents for few times as they are not supporting me to choose wat i wan n let me chase my own dream . The reason they give me is that this society is very realistic , the most important thing is that you can find a job n you can feed yourself . The interest is at the second place ......... Damn sad when i heard this , quickly go up stair n hide myself inside my room ! My mum also realises that she said the wrong words n send a glass of milk to my room to signify her apologize !!!!

My ambition is to be a chemist or doing something about chemistry , but my parent said that it's better for me to enter KPLSPM to become a teacher if i wan to be a chemist .I know many people are facing the same problem like me , doing something that your parents ask u to do which they think is the best for u , but i dont wan this kind of lifestyle , everything is arranged nicely by your parents . Although they think that it is for your own good , i wan to chase my dream , flying in the sky i dreamed for !!!!

Chemist

Last time will select to study STPM is also forced by my parents , they wan me to think carefully wat i really wan rather than just simply send me to any college to study the courses which i not really interested to !!! Now , i come out a conclusion but they are opposing toward it . Last time , you are the one who ask me to think carefully but now i tell u my decision ,you are not agreed with me , then wat for u ask me to think ?

STPM is really very hard to study . The difficulty is that u dont have enough time to do either homework or revision . Everyday , reach home after 330 , tuesday , wednesday n friday got tuition , reach home already 730 . After taking the bath n having the dinner , 900 only can start to do the homework . Revision ? Everyday only can study a few pages . Thursday , when reach home , very sleepy as exhausted after 2 continuous days of tuition !!! Monday n weekend are the only time i can relax but sometime saturday got school replacement , going tuition straight away , reach home same time with Tuesday !!!! Monday n Sunday , i only can start to do my revision after finished my assignment or presentation !!!! How busy is my form 6 life ?

But , recently , my STPM life become more n more harder since i cannot manage my relationship with others NICELY ......... Everyday argue with people , n making myself to have fewer n fewer friends , without friends , how can i manage to finish my STPM journey by myself ? I also know this point but my brain now cannot control my action and feeling edi , sometimes , maybe , my friends are talking slightly louder , then i can scold them without any reason ........ So , i say the god is very fair one , he will not give u all the good things , you surely will not get some of them !!!!

At here , really wan to apologize to my friends who are being scolded by me without any reason n say thank you to whom willing to borrow his/her ears to me n can tolerate me for a long time .........

I promise , i will change myself , but it takes times , so I hope u guyz can help me to pass through this period , n dont leave me to continue my journey alone

SORRY N THANK YOU

Disappointment

Today is our turn to present our chemistry presentation . Initially , I am very happy as I finally can present the slides which I had done during the holiday . But , it finally ended up with sadness and disapponintment .............. Am I asking for too much ? Who can give me the answer ?

Yesterday , I spent about 2 hours to read through the presentation slides to make sure that all the things are correct beside refresh my memories about this topic . I also sms my friends to read through the topic also . It is because tomorrow presentation got Q&A section . So , just hope that as less they have a general idea first .

The thing which makes me very disappointed is the attitude shown by my friends . My group got 6 members , before the holidays , they wanted me to do the combination of the slides , i have no choice , then agreed to do the combination . I had made my stand very clear that , they should sent me their part in one week's time , otherwise , ask another people to do the combination . But , they didnt put it inside their mind . Finally , only 2 person send me their part on time , the others , 1 give me the explanation before I ask him , another one , until i remind him , then only he realises that he supposes to send me his part in one week's time . The last one , nothing to say , just .........................

I finally received all their parts in Wednesday of the second week holiday . 4 days , ask me to do the whole chapter but they used more than one week to finish their small part only . It seem like impossible , but just because of the responsibility , i done it !!!

When the school reopen , I asked them who can go n photostat the copies for the class , they all suggested me AGAIN to do the job . Wat the stupid reasons u guyz give me !!!! By the way , i just accepted it . How stupid am I !!!

Yesterday , I sms to them to read through the topic , but only 3 persons replied me , the other two ? Then , today , I go to school n ask them y didnt replied my sms , they said that " U are using 012 , u know how expensive to send u the OK " . Then , the other friends are laughing at the side n say that they are not your lovers , y must they reply your SMS .

Before we start our presentation , only me set up the things in front . The most intolerant thing is that when we are going to start our presentation , 2 members go to toilet !!! Is this my own presentation ? No ! So , y they cant give me some cooperation ! During my presentation , I need to go here n there to take the maker , books , switch on the light , distribute the answer ................ None of them is helping me , all just sit at the side n see me to play a fool in front !!

During the presentation , only fews girl are paying their attention , the boyz , just playing around .........Can u guyz just appreciate the things which other people done it by hard ?

Am i asking for too much ? I really dont have answer . I just hope that as less can get some cooperation from them since i had done everything for them edi . But , their attitude made me very angry n disappoint !!!! Sometimes , i was wondering y i so stupid , keep helping them to do all the things , n they didnt say one thank you or do something that shows that they are really appreciated the things i done for them .

Is it my job to go n ask for your parts ? Is it my job to go n photostat ? U say that reply my sms costs u 10 cent ! Then for me , i called u and sms u , is free ? or Hotlink charge cheaper than DIGI ? Did u guyz think about these questions or not ?

If u guyz dont change your attitude , then , this will be the first n will be the last time we cooperate ~~~~~

忙碌的一个礼拜

这个礼拜，非常的忙，拜一连续两个实验，疯了！！拜二，补习补到7点，到家8点，九点才刚开始做功课，明明很累，却不知道哪来的毅力，把数学的功课做完，1点才睡！！拜三，一样，1点才睡，一样的理由！ 拜四，做PA补习功课，拜五，做数学补习功课！！拜五，不知为何突然心情不好，乱骂人，可怜维煦难得回来，还给我骂！！！

昨天，明明去到学校的心情还很好 ， 就帮他们找老师拿KOKO分 ，后来什么都拿到，不好意思HO ！！ 回到班上，继续我的数学功课，做到有点要疯了，就休息一下！什么！也有老师解决不了的问题？算了，反正，也没有打算得到答案！！！

后来，忽然发现自己在班上，原来是那么的。。。。。。以前，还没有那么觉得，现在才发现到！！！答应自己了，眼泪就留在那40号房，以后不可以再哭了，所以忍着了。虽然眼泪一直在眼眶里打转，还是昂起头，不让眼泪夺眶而出。有时离开一回儿 ， 会让自己冷静下来 ！！！！有时，想放弃 ，是因为你们 ， 让我有走下去的勇气 ， 希望我做出的决定是对的！！

眼泪就留在40号房吧！！

谢谢DESMOND 你的答案，会记住的 ，会改变的 ， 希望可以做一个相反的我 ！！！！

SONG YAN 下个礼拜就要去KL读书了，加油，虽然有点不舍 ， 但还是祝福你 ， 希望你能在你梦想的天空里个展翅高飞 ，永远不会忘记你这个朋友的！！！！


考试来了，是时候收拾心情，准备考试了，什么都不要去想了，安下心来 ， 用功读书吧！！！

拼了

很久没更新我的BLOG了 , 很多人都叫我快点更新 , 可是没有FEEL , 写出来的东西也会很假的 , HA HA !!!

现在 , 每天都在倒数着大考来临的日子 , 有点害怕 , 剩下差不多一个月的时间 , CHEMISTRY , 进度不错 , 可能是我喜欢化学的关系吧 , 每天读 . PHYSICS , 准备死的 , 现在老师连FORMULAE都不要DERIVED 给我们 , 时间不够 ? 数学 , 补习老师和学校老师好像在比快似的 , 应该还可以吧 , 自我感觉良好 ? PA , 无言 ! MUET , PN . SELVA 竟然说我SPEAKING 可以了, 我讲到自己都不懂在讲什么,她讲可以了? 希望可以拿 4 就好了.........

虽然考试要到了,全班就好像只有我在疯狂的复习 , 别人还可以在那里说些有的没的 , 唱歌 , 聊感情 , 好像他们还有半年才考试似的 , 可能吧 , 他们复习的速度比我还快........ 今天,竟然成为班上公敌 , 我只是提醒老师要给KUIZ , 他们就不爽我 , 数学的时候 , 也只是叫老师教快点 , 给多点功课 , 这也被鸟 , 再次无言.........

还有很多课还没复习 , ASSIGNMENT 又这边留一点 , 那边留一点 , KOLOKIUM , 完全没碰到 , 我时间不够用了啊!!!! 快要疯了 !!!!! STPM , 我和你拼了 , 不是你死就是我亡 !!!!!!

加油!!!!

加油

PS : 下次看到我时 , 可不可以向我说声 " 加油 " , 因为" 这一声加油人人都需要 ", 感谢你了!!!!

朋友

今天忽然想到要为我的中六生活做一个小结，希望能留下那么一点点记录，也是怕明年要终结时，太多东西要写，写不完。

回想起，刚刚进入中六的那天，那天的心情是沉重的，埋怨上天为何给我这样的一条路，羡慕他人可以自己去找寻自己的梦，羡慕他人可以拿到奖学金，羡慕他人不必回来读中六，羡慕这个，羡慕那个。。。。。。。可是却对自己的命运感到可悲。。。。。。。

遥想四个月前，我又重新踏入一样的校园，物是人非，心里有那么一点点感叹。。。。。第一天，大家都不认识彼此，感觉上EC是你们的地盘，人数比我们EX EC 的还多，大家都活在不同的圈圈里。。。一个礼拜后，大家还是不是很认识彼此，只知道有这号人物。。。。。。VICTOR和家乐，谢谢你们复印时间表给我。。。。。。

第一天上课，我，庆昌，俊业就和你们划清界线，楚河汉界，自己坐一桌，虽然你们一个桌子挤了六个人，你们还是不敢过来和我们坐。。。。。。。我好像是EX EC 的外交官，每次有新同学转来，就是我主动去认识你们。。。。。。。后来越来越多人转来，MR CHEW 才叫你们过来坐，你们也没有选择，就过来坐。。。。。。。。以前无论什么活动，都是我，庆昌，汶翰，俊业和文辉一组，EC 五虎将？

开始的三人组

俊业生日

后来，第一个活动开始了，ST JOHN FLAG DAY ， 还记得那时还不是很认识大家，我的组那时我也没认识几个，新认识的就有志豪和伟杰 ， 连美惠和诗佳都还没认识。我想让我们友情大跃进的应该是KOKO CAMP 吧 ， 那时，我负责收钱，连谁是谁都不懂，还可以收完，太不可思议了。。。还记得报道的时候，我最后第二个到，到的时候，你们已经MASUK BARIS 了。。。。。。。。

FLAG DAY

还记得那时我们讨论的东西吗？

明年再一起去

在那三天两夜的CAMP中， 大家毫无保留的，拿出最真实的自己，和他人相处。一起骂那个CICAK MAN ， 一起睡觉，一起表演。。。。。那些回忆是那么的真实的。还记得吗，那晚，我们只花了15分钟的时间讨论，就上台乱闹一场。那时，大家也是拼了命的想KAWAD 好 ，虽然后来，我们什么都没拿到，但是，我们赢得了友情。。。。那冰淇淋是我吃过最好吃的。。。。。因为有你们。。。。。。。。

最好吃的冰淇淋

ST JOHN FAREWELL 是我们第一个一起准备的FAREWELL ， 大家一起合作，就是希望能把最好的拿出来。老实说，刚开始的时候，有点不爽你们和我拿一样的POST，但是，后来我发现，和你们共事，也可以那么的愉快。。。。。。那个FAREWELL，大家都玩到很疯。。。。。。。后来，陆陆续续有很多FAREWELL，我们都一一的办好了。。。。我们见面的时间可能比家人见面的时间还多吧， HA HA ！！！

ST JOHN FAREWELL

SENI FOTO + MATH CLUB FAREWELL

后来，大家慢慢的熟络了，干出的疯狂事情也不少，年轻就是要这样。。。。。。

年轻就是本钱

这一个月来，我的脾气反反复复，也是要感谢你们，在我最无助的时候，拉我一把，开导我，愿意借我你的耳朵，听我述说。再次谢谢你们！！！！

转眼间，我们已经相处了四个月，说长不长，说短不短，可是，我能确定的是，我们还能相处的时间，只剩下一年多，可能一年都没有。。。。。我害怕离别，可是分分合合，是不变的定律，谁也无法改变的。打从我们认识的那天，就已经开始倒数着分离的日子了。但是，我希望我们能为彼此留下最深刻的记忆 ！！！！

到后来的多人同行

也许上天安排我走这条路是要让我遇到你们！！是你们，让我的中六生活过的多姿多彩，也是你们让我不后悔回来读中六，谢谢你们，朋友！！！