S.C.A.R.E

Very scare for the coming of tomorrow !!!! Worry about my result , although Mr.Chew told me that I scored A for my Chemisry , if I scored below 85 marks for that 'A' , then i can go n bang the wall edi !!!!! I put so much effort in this subject beside it is my favourite subject but only score less than 85 marks , then I will blame myself , hope i will not regret !!!!!

Last week , Tuesday night , Nurain came to my facebook n told me that my math 2 paper got many wrong !!!! It seem like a shot to me as this paper is the one I did it with full confidence but she told me got many wrong , hope she is just playing a fool with me !!!!!

PA and Physics , I think is better for me not to know my marks as i finished those paper on time , didnt double check the papers !!!! Hope can get good result although it seem impossible for me , ha ha !!!!!

Should I stop thinking about those things ? or share it with the others ? Really dont have the answer , hope god will give me some clues ..............

The sunset is so beautiful

Tomorrow will be better ~!!!!! By the way , all the best for my friends who are going to take the MUET exam in this Saturday , Good Luck , we can did it one !!!!

考试后 (1）

终于考完了 !!! 解放了 , 两个月的压力, 终算可以"暂时"放下了 , 年终考只是一个小难关 , 真正的难关是STPM !!!!! 希望可以从这次的考试中知道自己的弱点在哪里 , 知道以后才懂从哪里下手......

现在大概猜得到问题在哪里了 , 还是物理 , 没的救了啦 , 读到要死 , 不会的 , 不想背的 , 统统不会 , 有些还没填答案 , 空的 , 算了 , 有B就好偷笑了 , PA , 算了, 没东西说 , 第一次考 , FORMATE 会, 但不一定对, 哈哈 , 数学 和 化学 , 哈哈 , 这两科没什么大问题 , 就要小心咯 , 不要再粗心了.........

说些快乐的 , 昨天考完数学2后 , 就和婉盈他们出去 , 原本要去NUSAJAYA 的 , 后来这边等人 , 那边等人 , 后来等到一点九 , 要去NUSAJAYA来不及了 , 就决定去苏丹公园 !!!!

先去"华美"吃午餐 , 汶翰啊 , 下次不要再挡人家的路了啦,哈哈!!!! 吃饭时 , 大家都互亏对方 , 好像没有人能幸免 , 我们很久没有那样了 , 好像只有汶翰在 , 每个人才会被酸到 , 还有庆昌, 下次不要在叫"美华炒饭"了, 他们没有那道菜, 哈哈!!!!

后来就去外拍 , 先去后面那栋看起来有点鬼意的危楼外拍 , 还真的是危楼, 有些地方都塌下去了,恐怖 , 不过外观还好 , 终觉得没什么特别的 , 和EC的没什么差 , 可能是同期建筑物吧 , 拍拍拍拍到山坡去 , 还挑战自己跑下45 度的斜坡 , 连续三个 , PRO MAN , 哈哈!!!

危楼一角

我在干吗？


疯狂的玩！！！！

一定要拍的照片!! 跳跃!!!

后来就去前面的公园散步 , 忽然看到有一棵很好爬的树 , 就全部跑上树拍照 , 展现猴子的本能 , 哈哈 , 后来下来没几分钟 , 就被他们抓起来 , 要把我丢下斜坡 , 完全被吓倒 , 原以为只有自己疯罢了 , 原来大家玩得比我还疯!!!!!

ＭＯＮＫＥＹＳ！！！

乱水咯！！我还不想死！！！　

过后,ERNJUN 说要去水池那里拍拍 , 就陪他去咯 , 后来 , 不知哪来的勇气 , 把鞋子脱了, 就跳下去了, 疯了我 , 后来还失心疯的跑去和雕像拍照 , 照片拍出来还不错 , 帅气 MAN , 希望苏丹没有看到 , 要不然 , 事情就大条了.......

帅气的一张

看到新人在公园里拍婚纱照 , 几幸福一下 , 好想恋爱哦!!!!!

再添一件疯狂的事 , 向路过的人打招呼 , 够乱水 , 不过就是喜欢那样的感觉 , 希望以后还有很多机会 !!!!!!

今天 , 和六年没见的朋友聚会 , 虽然没有很多人来 , 可是 , 有见到面的 , 有些当下都叫不出名字了, 还是谢谢你们愿意出来和我们见面 !!!!

看了不是很好看的电影 , 可是有很大的感触 , 在困境面前 , 又有几个人可以为朋友牺牲呢 ? 看到人性的丑恶 , 人真的会为了自己的利益而出卖朋友!!!! 后来 , 就去吃午餐 , 在KIMGARY里 , 四个人的声音比别人一家人还大声 , HAHA !!!! WHO CARE ? 开心就好 !!!!

午餐后 , 杀到信盈家 , 信盈你变了 , 变美了, 成熟多了 , 后来去打BOWLING , 打一场, 就赶去补习 , 化学 , 第一次迟到 , 哈哈 , 没办法 , 六年没见的朋友比较重要 !!!!

我的假期还没结束，明天去打球，拜五和家人出去玩，会一一的记录下来，期待吧！！！　





PS:凯杰 , 维杰谢谢你们愿意出来!!!! 家棋 , 谢谢你载我们去这边去那边 !!!! 明年记得搞团拜, 不可以忘记哦!!!

考试周

最近两个礼拜都没UPDATE我的BLOG了，今天就写一些吧！！要不然就会生锈了，HA HA！！！这几个礼拜都在忙考试，每天读三个小时的书，不疯也剩半条命。。。。。。。。

虽然好像读很多，可是考到现在什么都好像够吃而已，PA 试卷一应该算OK吧 ， PA 2 格式没错，只是POINTS有没有中就不知道了！！！ Chemistry 试卷1 错八题 ， 原以为只会错4 题 ，后来错多一倍， 算了，试卷二，ESSAY 漏掉一些POINTS ， 不知道会怎样 ？ 物理试卷1 只是错5题 ， 有开心到，因为物理是我的死穴 ， 可是试卷2 ， 才要我的命 ， EQUATION写对了 ， 可是时间太短 ， 害我计算机乱乱按， 有几题就那么GG了。。。。。。

最不爽的是我去厕所太快也给人家怀疑！！！说我去作弊，也不看看我去的时间，我去都不到一分钟，看+背答案都超过一分钟 了！！！！！你不会做我不怪你 ，就是不要讲到我 ，如果还有下次，就让你知道死字怎么写！！！！

作弊，不可能

算了，为这种人动气不值得 ， 还是留点力气来读我的数学 ， 这科不可以GG ， 这是我第二喜欢的科目 ， 也希望这科考好一点 ，可以拉高整体的CGPA ， 我要的不多，就3.5以上 ， 要不让然很对不起自己 ，加油 ！！！！

下个礼拜二要去唱K ， 拜三要去看电影 ，拜四去打球 ，拜五，拜六和家人出去玩 ，好期待下个礼拜的到来 ， 我已经两个月没有出去了！！！！

最后，朋友们加油，最后两张试卷了，我们行的！！！！加油！！！

晴时多云偶阵雨

我想这句话最能描述我这个礼拜的心情写照吧 ！不想再去提起了，忘记或者是最佳的解决方法。。。。。。。想太多真的是我的致命伤吧？

算了，说些开心的，昨天再次和HENRY确定补习是否取消，他说没有，顿时吓到，因为上个礼拜他说取消，可是后来又没有。够乱的咯他，所以过后马上去通知别人。我通知人的方式很FORMAL么？为什么有人那么说呢？ 还好，通知全部人了，没有人怪我告诉他们错的消息。。

今天，YIK QI 要做SURVEY ，婚前性行为，你赞不赞同 ，有点难回答，后来还是回答赞同！做这样的题目就有点怪怪的感觉。还好，今天班上的气氛又回到以前那样了，就废废的 ， MUET的时候，SPEAKING ， 够难的咯，我的POINT ，还好够讲两分钟，希望拜二的题目不要那么那难,保佑，保佑 ！！！

第二次了，上PA补习，上到睡掉，还好如意叫醒我，所以说吗，中六的时间真的不够用，昨天，连续读两个INORGANIC CHEMISTRY 的 CHAPTER ，读了还要自己做SHORT NOTES ， 读到2点才睡，今天AMRAN上课又没有抄NOTES，就不小心睡掉 。 后来，才发现，也是有很多人倒下去，EC 的有几个人 ， HA HA ，好笑咯 ，那样子你都能睡 ， SSI 的更GENG ， 超多倒下去，难怪今天上课有那么一点点安静 ， 我的感觉是否坏掉了 ， 因为人家讲都没有什么安静到 ， HA HA 。。。。


考试越来越近，有点期待，是不是XIAO了我，可是又有点害怕，复习的引擎已启动 ， 可是功课还是很多，所以有时要会安排时间，在功课与复习之间做出调整 ，要不然肯定会忽略其中一项 。。。。。。。物理，还是对你没有兴趣，可是这个礼拜对你慢慢有点好感，希望不要败在你手上。。。。。。。。。

最后，希望大家都加油，还没开始复习的，快点复习，开始的，继续努力，大家一起加油吧！！！STPM ， 我一定能打败你的！！！！

我要自己加油！！！

Sadness

Tomorrow got a lot of things to do , so , today faster update my blog !!!! This is a busier week than before , the exam is coming nearer and nearer , but i only prepare chemistry ..... PA n math , only prepare little ....... Physic , sure gg one as i dont have much interest on this subject , did none revision on it .

This week , argue n quarrel with my parents for few times as they are not supporting me to choose wat i wan n let me chase my own dream . The reason they give me is that this society is very realistic , the most important thing is that you can find a job n you can feed yourself . The interest is at the second place ......... Damn sad when i heard this , quickly go up stair n hide myself inside my room ! My mum also realises that she said the wrong words n send a glass of milk to my room to signify her apologize !!!!

My ambition is to be a chemist or doing something about chemistry , but my parent said that it's better for me to enter KPLSPM to become a teacher if i wan to be a chemist .I know many people are facing the same problem like me , doing something that your parents ask u to do which they think is the best for u , but i dont wan this kind of lifestyle , everything is arranged nicely by your parents . Although they think that it is for your own good , i wan to chase my dream , flying in the sky i dreamed for !!!!

Chemist

Last time will select to study STPM is also forced by my parents , they wan me to think carefully wat i really wan rather than just simply send me to any college to study the courses which i not really interested to !!! Now , i come out a conclusion but they are opposing toward it . Last time , you are the one who ask me to think carefully but now i tell u my decision ,you are not agreed with me , then wat for u ask me to think ?

STPM is really very hard to study . The difficulty is that u dont have enough time to do either homework or revision . Everyday , reach home after 330 , tuesday , wednesday n friday got tuition , reach home already 730 . After taking the bath n having the dinner , 900 only can start to do the homework . Revision ? Everyday only can study a few pages . Thursday , when reach home , very sleepy as exhausted after 2 continuous days of tuition !!! Monday n weekend are the only time i can relax but sometime saturday got school replacement , going tuition straight away , reach home same time with Tuesday !!!! Monday n Sunday , i only can start to do my revision after finished my assignment or presentation !!!! How busy is my form 6 life ?

But , recently , my STPM life become more n more harder since i cannot manage my relationship with others NICELY ......... Everyday argue with people , n making myself to have fewer n fewer friends , without friends , how can i manage to finish my STPM journey by myself ? I also know this point but my brain now cannot control my action and feeling edi , sometimes , maybe , my friends are talking slightly louder , then i can scold them without any reason ........ So , i say the god is very fair one , he will not give u all the good things , you surely will not get some of them !!!!

At here , really wan to apologize to my friends who are being scolded by me without any reason n say thank you to whom willing to borrow his/her ears to me n can tolerate me for a long time .........

I promise , i will change myself , but it takes times , so I hope u guyz can help me to pass through this period , n dont leave me to continue my journey alone

SORRY N THANK YOU

Disappointment

Today is our turn to present our chemistry presentation . Initially , I am very happy as I finally can present the slides which I had done during the holiday . But , it finally ended up with sadness and disapponintment .............. Am I asking for too much ? Who can give me the answer ?

Yesterday , I spent about 2 hours to read through the presentation slides to make sure that all the things are correct beside refresh my memories about this topic . I also sms my friends to read through the topic also . It is because tomorrow presentation got Q&A section . So , just hope that as less they have a general idea first .

The thing which makes me very disappointed is the attitude shown by my friends . My group got 6 members , before the holidays , they wanted me to do the combination of the slides , i have no choice , then agreed to do the combination . I had made my stand very clear that , they should sent me their part in one week's time , otherwise , ask another people to do the combination . But , they didnt put it inside their mind . Finally , only 2 person send me their part on time , the others , 1 give me the explanation before I ask him , another one , until i remind him , then only he realises that he supposes to send me his part in one week's time . The last one , nothing to say , just .........................

I finally received all their parts in Wednesday of the second week holiday . 4 days , ask me to do the whole chapter but they used more than one week to finish their small part only . It seem like impossible , but just because of the responsibility , i done it !!!

When the school reopen , I asked them who can go n photostat the copies for the class , they all suggested me AGAIN to do the job . Wat the stupid reasons u guyz give me !!!! By the way , i just accepted it . How stupid am I !!!

Yesterday , I sms to them to read through the topic , but only 3 persons replied me , the other two ? Then , today , I go to school n ask them y didnt replied my sms , they said that " U are using 012 , u know how expensive to send u the OK " . Then , the other friends are laughing at the side n say that they are not your lovers , y must they reply your SMS .

Before we start our presentation , only me set up the things in front . The most intolerant thing is that when we are going to start our presentation , 2 members go to toilet !!! Is this my own presentation ? No ! So , y they cant give me some cooperation ! During my presentation , I need to go here n there to take the maker , books , switch on the light , distribute the answer ................ None of them is helping me , all just sit at the side n see me to play a fool in front !!

During the presentation , only fews girl are paying their attention , the boyz , just playing around .........Can u guyz just appreciate the things which other people done it by hard ?

Am i asking for too much ? I really dont have answer . I just hope that as less can get some cooperation from them since i had done everything for them edi . But , their attitude made me very angry n disappoint !!!! Sometimes , i was wondering y i so stupid , keep helping them to do all the things , n they didnt say one thank you or do something that shows that they are really appreciated the things i done for them .

Is it my job to go n ask for your parts ? Is it my job to go n photostat ? U say that reply my sms costs u 10 cent ! Then for me , i called u and sms u , is free ? or Hotlink charge cheaper than DIGI ? Did u guyz think about these questions or not ?

If u guyz dont change your attitude , then , this will be the first n will be the last time we cooperate ~~~~~

忙碌的一个礼拜

这个礼拜，非常的忙，拜一连续两个实验，疯了！！拜二，补习补到7点，到家8点，九点才刚开始做功课，明明很累，却不知道哪来的毅力，把数学的功课做完，1点才睡！！拜三，一样，1点才睡，一样的理由！ 拜四，做PA补习功课，拜五，做数学补习功课！！拜五，不知为何突然心情不好，乱骂人，可怜维煦难得回来，还给我骂！！！

昨天，明明去到学校的心情还很好 ， 就帮他们找老师拿KOKO分 ，后来什么都拿到，不好意思HO ！！ 回到班上，继续我的数学功课，做到有点要疯了，就休息一下！什么！也有老师解决不了的问题？算了，反正，也没有打算得到答案！！！

后来，忽然发现自己在班上，原来是那么的。。。。。。以前，还没有那么觉得，现在才发现到！！！答应自己了，眼泪就留在那40号房，以后不可以再哭了，所以忍着了。虽然眼泪一直在眼眶里打转，还是昂起头，不让眼泪夺眶而出。有时离开一回儿 ， 会让自己冷静下来 ！！！！有时，想放弃 ，是因为你们 ， 让我有走下去的勇气 ， 希望我做出的决定是对的！！

眼泪就留在40号房吧！！

谢谢DESMOND 你的答案，会记住的 ，会改变的 ， 希望可以做一个相反的我 ！！！！

SONG YAN 下个礼拜就要去KL读书了，加油，虽然有点不舍 ， 但还是祝福你 ， 希望你能在你梦想的天空里个展翅高飞 ，永远不会忘记你这个朋友的！！！！


考试来了，是时候收拾心情，准备考试了，什么都不要去想了，安下心来 ， 用功读书吧！！！